13/11/13

I've discovered a few things in the past week or so.

• I strongly dislike exams
• Shark week is very stressful/gross/sore
• I miss the Coldplay concert more than ever and it's killing me!
• I love cuddles
• Captain Phillip is a very sad movie and if you cry easily at movies then I suggest bringing tissues or a cute guy who will cuddle you and make everything better
• It's weird how your friends with someone and you never realise how much they will mean to you after awhile
• I love the Harry Potter soundtrack
• There's only like 3 more weeks of school for the year! I just have to bullshit my way through school for a little longer
• My hair does not like me when I need it to
• I cannot wait till Christmas/new years/birthday
• There are so many things I want to say to people but I don't know how
• This has been the shittiest year of my life.

Amen.

Love always x

:)

Despite having horrible exams every day, I still feel extremely happy right now.
I mean of course the spanish exam I had today was a disaster and I wrote "Puedo ir al bano" for most of the questions (it means May i please go to the bathroom?) but for some reason i'm having rushes of happiness and I love it!
I just hope it won't go away in a hurry.
Love always xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Panick Attacks

It's 12:30am and I just had a panic attack which is weird because I usually get them at night, although I did have one last night too...

Atleast now I know what tends to trigger them. Exams. Well that's how they start but they turn out to be more than that once I start panicking and thinking about other things.

It's always the same things; school, fears, appearance, death, weight, time management and in the end I just feel like i'm going crazy. Which as you can imagine, is not fun.

I'm sorry if this is slightly disturbing or unsettling to read but I find typing this is the only way to keep myself calm.

I've decided to start the day again. I'm going to have goals and motives.

Love always xx